Hello…
This Ruth here has so many dreams. I want to have my own tv station, a school, a house for my children and ‘children’, want to study art @ Japan + Europe. I want to study Master till Doctorate. Also, I want to study more about Japanese language, and website. Those just are some of my dreams.
First thing first.
I have to save money to start it all. So, the first thing poped in my mind is, that thing: bigger salary.
In my present job, I really enjoy it much, but since I have MONEY as my priority now, I’m thinking about another better-salary job. I may talk to my boss, but, don’t know why I don’t wanna talk about it. Maybe I’ve set my mind maybe I haven’t. So, before everything’s clear for me, I don’t wanna talk about it even with my mama. She’ll make me think twice again.
My priority now is MONEY. That’s all.
then I will be able to take another course by my own funding. In this case, web design course. I wanna take a good one, so… yap. And I also want to study japanese language @ pandan college… I heard it’s that great. ♡ *ngiler.
Hmmm… To think about it, I don’t really think about man in my dreams. Hahahaha. I just think about children.
You know. It’s impossible. But… If I could choose, I wanted to be like Mariam, the mother of Isa alaihissalam. She can be pregnant without having any man. And she’s still virgin n pure, when she had Isa as. It’s impossible, but rather than to have a husband, I want a child much more. I don’t really care if I don’t get married, because I used to be alone in this almost entire life, just with my mom, I don’t get along with man much, but I reallly want a child. That’s why, if I could I would choose to have my own baby. I’ve thought about it from long time ago 
. But, that’s just a thought.
Let it be.
About a man, hmmmmm… Thinking about it, but it’s too complicated. I have too much requirements.
-no smoking
-no ‘nongkrong’
-no slengean aka, mature enough. At least he can amazed me with his mature thoughts and views. Not those who try to be mature. Haha! Had enough with that kind of folk.
-don’t have to be handsome, but he has to be good looking. Clean and neat. It shows how he manage his things in order.
-a fighter of life. Not those who lean on their mother and father but tries to look cool. Big no no to spoilt big guy.
-and of course, a muslim who is always remember of Allah.
Where can I find that kind of great man. I’m sure they’re out there, somewhere.. But, maybe, they’re not mine yet.
I’m tired of choosing. But I keep those requirements in my mind. I’m sure Allah would give me the best, if I keep keep and continue to take good care of my self, and do good.
Bismillah.
Have a nice day!
