been months since my last entry. and almost 5 months i’ve been working in this company. i enjoy it, tho my mother not. but she’ll understand later that i want to work here at least for 1 year. then i’ll find better opportunity, anyway it’s for gathering good portfolio also.

last year was a long year for me. got a good job, got tired, found a new job, resigned, and got into a new company, another adaptation, getting along with new co-workers and jobs, been praised by the boss for my ‘GOOD’ works, and now, still trying to survive here .

all are blessings.

as the matter of love, as usual, not long after i got here, there’re some gossips spread among my co-workers that some men (what?! MEN? not MAN?) are in crush with me. well, i finally found out who they were, and one of them was cute. now they still want me to respond to this cutie. hahahaha

anyway, it’s not a big deal, so i just take everything easy. if things getting serious, then that’s a good sign from Allah that maybe, this year i’ll find new love.

my life’s been filled with love anyway, just a bit empty.

resolutions? nothing. the first year i didn’t write any resolutions.

well, that’s for today… jya!

I am no lesbian. I just hate you and don’t have any faith in you. I hate your wonderful words to my kind when you expect something from us. I hate your true nature that you were created just like that. I don’t hate God who created you, I just hate you for being who you are. Anyway, I hate you.

I won’t deny that there some kind of you who are good and sincere. My friends are. So I do not disrespect them. But you guys. Most of you, I hate.

I don’t care If I couldn’t married or I would married older, just GTH!

Since I was born till the day I write this entry, I have no good men around me nor my family. They’re divorced, and I haven’t seen him since then. Till I find a real good man, I won’t be marrying. Let the God take my virginity till I die.

gomen nasai. kamera no koto desu kedo… atashi no sei deshita, are wa. asa ni nantoka, wazato janai, happeninggu wa shite shimatta… mondai  moima made mada wakaranai kedo, hanasenai. gomen na, kaachan.

ima wa shigoto shite iru kara, saki denwa o shita  koto ga mendo sugitan da. dakara, ato de ne. ato de…
demo sore wa mou, kudaranai deshou ne… ( gomen

i’m planning about surviving here at least a year. and after receiving my first salary, i will start a new english course to gain a perfect TOEFL/ IELTS score to get scholarship.

hmmm… my mom’s friend’s son made me envy again by hearing his accepted to KMD (Keio Master of Design). that’s the school and the major i’ve been hunting for months. but, lucky for him. i wish i’ll get scholarship wherever i would go to school for Master.

anyway. gotta go. wanna sleep in the office haha

jya.

And, I got phonecall from M*tro R*tail that I got through the final hrd interview. Which means, salary nego, contract, etc things yaaay for me, alhamdulillah…

Pray for me friends.

Good day for you all

I saw a sakratul maut of my custom ‘tukang becak’, after he delivered me and mother to mitra. I was off the becak. But my mother hadn’t. There I realized that he would go, home. Back to his Lord. Our Lord. Allah. :’( it’s so sad that I would never see his smiling face again in the morning.

One thing for sure: sakratul maut is hurt. Much hurts. And you’ll never be able to say any Names of Allah except miracle happens. scary, but I hope he gets forgiveness of Allah amin. (To be cont…)

For these 4days i only laid lazily at hotel. Because actually i didnt jnterested in going out. I just need somewhere comfort and calm and different than jakarta or bekasi. To relax.

And the weekend is almost over, tomorrow will be working day again. Hiks… I need more. Anyway, i want to resign after getting another job. That’s all.

Fighting! You too!

Ps. Scary about home flight i dont like planes

Stressful.

And that man, the one I told you before, who gave me something on my birthday, is being a reeeaaaalllllyyyy annoying person! Until now I’ve heard and feel about his “bad” attitude, his problems with people, but never hear the worst like “stealing someone else’s ideas”!!

As a designer, I often see other people’s design, just for inspiration. But when doing my own design, I try not to totally copying the design. I also show my own style in every design I make. Take someone else’s design as an inspiration is normal. But stealing someone’s ideas? A CRIME!! I curse that kind of thing.

Anyway, that person, has been cleverer than the plagiator! Hahahahaha! Thank God. But really. He, the plagiator should be ashamed!

The truth is, I’m just so tired. But if I quit, will I get another job which as fun as this one??